He Cares

*written May 2023* In one of my more memorable moments of receiving prophecy, the person prophesying said something profound. He mentioned that I had wounds I had simply covered, rather than healing them from the root. I was 18 when he said it, right before I came to university, and to be honest, it wasn’t…

Nothing is Wasted

Firstly, let me apologise for the number of “I’m worthy” posts I feel like I’ve written – clearly, I am healing. And yes, this is yet another one of those. I don’t know the origin, but at some point in my life I began to feel responsible for certain things, I placed several burdens on…

Perfect Love*

[written December 2022] When I was 17 (probably even earlier), I wrote a paragraph in my now thought-tracker that I stumbled upon today. It ended this way: “because I have no one, I will be that one for everyone. I never want anyone I know to be crying somewhere without my knowledge, or need help…

Altogether Beautiful

I had a chat with someone recently: they were questioning me on my past relationships. It’s someone who has known me since we were born, our parents are the best of friends. As I was explaining things to her, she said something like: “how could you let these things happen? You have always been so…

The Grey Areas

Where I come from, Christianity and Islam are the two dominant religions, and as a result of this, I have had the opportunity to be friends with Muslims and ask some personal questions (out of my own Christianity). I cannot claim to know nor understand their faith inside-out, especially as I am still trying to…

King Hezekiah

I am in my final year! By the grace of God and that only. I am amazed by how much time has passed by, and at my age. Today I realised that those born in 2004 are turning 18, and I have to tell you, I felt uncomfortable…if you were ever to ask me my…

I Will Sing

[written March 4, 2022] I sang at my father’s 50th Birthday thanksgiving service two days ago. It was a significant moment, a core memory. I’ll explain. My father’s side of the family is musical, and none of us seem to have missed the gene. We all do something in music or love it from the…

at the knees

I used to be insecure, but not in the kind of way that disabled my every day living, rather in the sort of way that meant that I accepted that I look like this, sound like this, are like this, and that will never change, so while I don’t have to like it, I will…

The One You Love*

There are two drafts sitting in my notes app. One is an attempt to defend the reality that I have chosen for myself, which is that there is a God and He is best known and known only through Jesus (so, Christianity). Another is an attempt to explain who God is to me. I’ll be…

Psalm 23

I went for an event Summer 2019. If you’re a regular here (THANK YOU) you know that that is the summer right before I came to university. You also know that at the time, I had been struggling with significant anxiety for a while. That summer, it intensified. I would think myself into several situations…