I Will Sing

[written March 4, 2022] I sang at my father’s 50th Birthday thanksgiving service two days ago. It was a significant moment, a core memory. I’ll explain. My father’s side of the family is musical, and none of us seem to have missed the gene. We all do something in music or love it from the…

at the knees

I used to be insecure, but not in the kind of way that disabled my every day living, rather in the sort of way that meant that I accepted that I look like this, sound like this, are like this, and that will never change, so while I don’t have to like it, I will…

The One You Love*

There are two drafts sitting in my notes app. One is an attempt to defend the reality that I have chosen for myself, which is that there is a God and He is best known and known only through Jesus (so, Christianity). Another is an attempt to explain who God is to me. I’ll be…

Psalm 23

I went for an event Summer 2019. If you’re a regular here (THANK YOU) you know that that is the summer right before I came to university. You also know that at the time, I had been struggling with significant anxiety for a while. That summer, it intensified. I would think myself into several situations…

The Violent Take It By Force.

I’m in an interesting season of life. I am standing in the field of answered prayers. The flowers are blooming and shining. Everywhere I turn, and I do mean everywhere, I can see where I prayed about something many years back, and in some cases, where I crashed into God and lain on Him –…

fear.

[written December 2021] I don’t think I’ve ever actually gone into details of my experience with fear. I’m not sure if every Christian deals with it to the extent that I have, or if it’s one of those things the devil has tailored to my personality. Either way, there’s someone out there who has probably…

Valley (2)

[written February 2021]  The coronavirus is the most annoying perilous pestilence I can think of. There are hard lots, and this is the most irritating. How can we still be in a pandemic? I promise myself every 2.5 seconds that I will not leave home, I will not do this, or that – it’s very…

The Well that Never Runs Dry

I try my hardest to be consistent in the things of God, simply because He shows up for me every time, without fail, and the least I can do is attempt to do same for Him. Sometimes it’s tiring. I’ve been saying “I’m tired” consistently for years now (this is not an exaggeration) and it’s…

The Secret is

I am currently battling a significant case of Imposter Syndrome. I do not know anything that is happening in my life, nor am I in tune of my emotions, because as per my coping mechanism, I have shut down in order to be able to function without interruption. It has been a very interesting time,…

the story of the piercing

[written June 2021] I pierced my ear in November. It is a helix piercing. According to the Internet, it takes three to six months to heal. I did not have particular interest in removing the piercing, but two months ago, I believe (five months after the procedure took place), I realized how much gunk was…