365 times (Part 1)

(Another Faith post that was long!) My name is Michelle-Irene, and I’m an over thinker. I’ve mentioned my tendency to worry on the blog before, I’m sure. It became a part of my identity without me realising it. I don’t even know where it started, because I promise you at some point in my life…

Mind Over Matter, 2019.

[written 20 July 2019] I don’t really know where to start, but here we go. Yesterday and the day before (so the 18th and 19th) I had the utmost privilege and honour of attending a program put together by 18 people, including me, and the 19th person, the Holy Spirit. I’m not even sure of…

my hur.

I cut my hair. I chopped off the natural I had struggled with for 6-7 years and poured chemicals in it (I thought my scalp was going to fall off, I forgot what perming felt like). I hated my natural hair so much that I had to hold in tears of relief. It was relieving…

Fallar

I don’t think I give myself enough credit. I work the absolute best I can, then cry about the results of my efforts. I scare myself into being alone. I pray with some strange fear in my heart, fear of failure. I have too many examples. When I’ve done something wrong, I don’t wait for…

To Be Different

I’ve been different from the moment I was born. My mother says I looked exactly like my paternal grandmother, who is quite strong-willed. She says she knew from the moment she saw my face that I was going to be just the same. And she was not wrong. I started saying that I aspired to…

A Good Day (Part 1)

This is a Faith post, and it was really long, so I broke it into two. I happened to read a post by my friend yesterday* and it got me thinking. The start of the poem was about how every time he tried to be happy, something happened to get him down. It struck me,…

Hello, Bullied.

In Year 1, I sat by this girl who tore up paper for me to eat. She would literally tear it up and place the pieces on my table and tell me to eat it, and would threaten me every time I attempted to say I wouldn’t eat it. I think she even taunted me…

Self-Confidence

My roommate is a really sweet soul, one of my favourite people. She’s always making us laugh, always making sure she’s adding some joy to someone’s life. Lately, it’s been hard for her. In the midst of college applications and examinations, plus some authorities who are not encouraging, she’s giving up. She doesn’t want to…